Now that I work throughout the week, my days often consist of projects upon projects upon projects. Plus technology issues come my way (I was called the tech guru today!), which is awesome because I love problem-solving. However, it also means that my brain is going 20 places at one time, not allowing me to concentrate on anything for a long period of time. I think it was a relief at the end of my day to trace some of the drawings done by kids for next week’s church bulletin (youth sunday!), because I was able to sit down and focus on something as simple as tracing a pencil drawing with a sharpie pen.

Focus. That’s always been difficult for me in the short-term. In the long-term, I like to think that I’m focused. I know what I’m doing, and I know what I want to do in the future (up to a point of like, 2 years, okay? I don’t exactly have my life planned out because no one has their life realistically planned out at 20). Anyways. The short-term is harder though. This week. This month. This semester. I’m really good at doing way too much, and taking on too many projects at once, which means that I can’t give adequate focus to all of them. For instance, my thesis proposal this past semester turned out pretty good, but it could have been great had I actually focused on it a month earlier (when I was at conferences).


Perhaps my summer spiritual practice will need to concentrate on this particular shortcoming. As I mentioned in my last post, I’ve been able to unplug when I come home in the evenings, and focus on doing something with my hands. Lately, that’s been cooking and putting together jigsaw puzzles on the dining room table. Just something as simple as following a recipe requires focus and thought. I tend to just toss ingredients into pans and go from there, but this evening, I actually followed a recipe. I knew it was going to be good as soon as I dumped the spice while sautéing the garlic and peppers. This smells right. It’s going to be good. But I had to slow down long enough in order to get there.

I’ve also been trying to establish a Bible-reading routine, which again, requires me to focus. I’m enjoying being interested in reading the book that I profess faith with, because it was never something that appealed to me before. But a new translation and attempting to disturb my gendered mental image of God has been helping. Bible reading and prayer are tenets of Christian practice, and yet I have never been able to consistently do either of them. I’m attempting contemplative prayer a few days each week, which is really hard. If you’ve never tried it, it’s essentially the Christian meditative form of prayer – and sitting there trying to focus on God is hard when you have twenty things running through your head and God seems like the least exciting of all of them. Focus is hard.


So I’m curious. If you’re reading this, and empathizing with me, or nodding along because this sounds so familiar – what are some of the practices you partake in that help you focus? I want to hear them!

p.s. perhaps ironically, the pictures accompanying this post are all visually centered on focus itself. That was not intentional, but is certainly suggestive.

Post-Finals Health

We’ll categorize this post under “taking care of yourself after finals week” or “restoring sanity”. Both, I think, are terribly appropriate. The fact that currently working at two internships for the summer, and am enjoying the break/relaxing gives you some indication of how insane this past semester was.

For the record, I know now not to take 19 credits, have 2-3 major leadership positions, and present at 4 conferences all in one semester. My advisor has been warning me of overloading myself for the past three years (I am a chronic overbooker/overachiever), but it was this semester when this habit caught up with me. For the record, it did not catch up with my grades, and for that, I am forever grateful.


To top it all off, I managed to dislocate a rib during finals week while I was simultaneously studying and moving. So after finals, my first stop was at the chiropractor (mine is basically a miracle-worker). Now, I’m housesitting in a gorgeous local home – with a kitchen all to myself. At some point during finals, when I’d gotten so sick of sugar/not eating well that I couldn’t actually enjoy eating anymore, I decided to do something about it post-semester.


As I remarked to someone last week, going back to healthy food as a detox is a bit reminiscent of my roots as a farmgirl (see the title of this blog), where health was a way of life. I don’t miss some parts of living on a farm, but I definitely miss the ability to eat well all the time. It’s easy to make the choice to eat well when you have the resources to do so, but for those of us whose access to clean food/kitchens/more than 15 minutes for meals is limited, choosing healthy food is often impossible.


So this week has been for detoxing, and getting over a sugar addiction. With the exception of a meeting at the local bakery (cannot stay away from raspberry croissants, ever), I went sugar-free and pescetarian. It’s been incredibly successful, and I feel far more energized (*also because I’m getting more than 5 hours of sleep per night). I’ll probably go back on some other meats throughout the summer, but I wanted to start by getting myself used to eating mostly-vegetables again.


Finally, I’m trying to use my free time doing things that are both productive and mentally healthy. That means trying to stay away from Lord of the Rings Online (my guilty gaming pleasure) and wandering aimlessly around Facebook for hours. I’ve pulled out my camera again, and am trying to put aside time for devotionals or quiet contemplation every few days. Every few days because I have a really bad habit of starting something “daily” for a few days, and then getting off track (and guilting myself into not restarting it). So every few days to get back into the mode of spending time peacefully with God, and outside of my own head. I also picked up a copy of the Common English Bible this semester, which is helping immensely. (Reading Ezekiel is actually really interesting when it’s in simple English.)

So here’s to self-care and rejuvenation.

Done with the Semester + Iced Coffee

Happy May! I’m back to the blog with another semester under my belt. As a told a professor via email yesterday, I’m pretty sure this spring was when I discovered the limit of responsibilities + classes (+ boyfriends + drama) that I can handle in one 16 week period. It was a good growing experience, and luckily, my GPA made it out unscathed. As did my sanity, surprisingly.

Now I’m doing two marketing internships – one continuing from last semester, and one beginning this week for a new company. I’m so excited to concentrate on this without homework and 143980713587 other tasks pulling for my mental energy.

If you’re a fellow college student (or once were), I’m sure you know exactly how this feels.

To celebrate, I’ve been drinking a lot of iced coffee. The house I’m staying in has a ginormous coffee maker, and I generally make way too much in the mornings, which means that I have cold coffee to ice in the afternoons! If you’ve never made it, you’re missing out on an easy treat (that you don’t have to pay $4 for!).